BROKEN

sians

2006-12-16T21:46:00.001+08:00

hmmm..alot things happened recently...dad in hospital..lots of stress from piano teacher and lots of personal stuffs..realli so stress man..

somemore keep getting scoldings and stuffs..hehex..but then it was all ok..hmmm..now playing games again lor..destress lah..hahas..

or else realli will die lah..aiya..dad condition now ok le bahs..he went hospital one week i guess..and when they on the siren of the ambulance..

it realli worried me as i guess it was like realli an emergency..then i saw that my dad had a lack of oxygen..it realli scared me..

then i suddenly felt that a life was like so fragile..so easy to be lost anytime too..it realli told me to treasure life..

at that moment when i was waiting for my dad..i thought of lots of stuffs..it also like told me that life was something..u onli have one..u cannot have two lives..

it also suddenly came to my mind that being a civil servant was like a realli noble job..to save lives..or even a doctor..could just save someone life..

it realli feels as though they are holy or sth..i realli think that..one should live life to the fullest..and not like waste it on stpid stuffs like gambling i guess..

realli stupid things..i realli dunnoe..anyway..hes out lers..i go lers bahs..tired leh..xD buaiix guys

sians

2006-12-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm..bored

2006-11-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

hais..today sad arh..becaz mum lor..keep scolding me for nth..or rather for sth..but like kinda unreasonable things..

it was about like textbooks lah..like if u buy textbooks..the print of the 2nd edition and first edition would be realli small rite?

then we went there..then saw books..then went to buy..then after that the person also so blur de lor..like give us wrong books..

then like so darn stupid lor..then have to keep changing sia..zzz..

then after that..it was like there was this book..science de..then it was first edition..

me and my mum checked three times..then nvr found it..then in the end..i got scolded becaz of it..say wad i nvr check properly..

might as well..she say that..she and me nvr check properly..then mayb sound more like it lor..sians..

then i was like taking all the burden..so darn lame sia..then it was like so darn unfair lor..hais..dunnoe bahs..

realli affected about it lor..kinda like..when something goes wrong..all the blame is on me..then when something goes right..and goes smoothly..its her credit..

it has always happened for alot of times lers..almost scolded her worx..but then like she is my mum..so nvr scold her at all..not even once becaz of this..

hahas..anyway..my day was realli bad..sick and somemore all these..realli sians..somemore..the gums cut by wires..hais..so sians..so pain..

anyway i go orh orh liao..buaiix buaiix..heeheex..

2006-11-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for everything that happens to you.

I'm sorry that I'm not able to love you anymore.

I really have no rights nor anymore freedom to fall in love with you further.

I'm sorry for breaking all the vows we made of staying together and everything.

I can no longer follow suit and continue walking with you.

I must make your heart die, not your body,
but your heart only.

I mustn't let you your body die.

I've got no rights to do so.

I shouldn't have taken your whole heart away then trash it in your face.

I really shouldn't but I had no choice.

I've no longer anymore time nor efforts to do so.

I can no longer continue walk along with you.

I'm sorry for everything.

I said all those mean things just to make your heart die,
and no longer hold on to any hope that's twinkling in your hands or anything.

I must never let you wait hopelessly on and on.

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

I really hope I can hold back my tears and fake a laugh or anything.

I can't.

Tears are flowing and the blood.. dripping every 3-5 seconds.

I can no longer hold on anymore.

Sorry if I can't and be your sister.

Sorry for everything.

I didn't mean for everything to turn out this way.

I hate to see you dying, slowly.

I'd rather it was me in your place, suffering.

But, I am suffering along too.

I was hoping the pgysical pain was greater than the emotional pain.

I was hoping so hard that I would just sleep to my death.

I'm really worried about you, dar.

I really never wanted to leave you deliberately but I really had no choice.

I really want to hold on with you forever too,
but there's like too many things to handle.

I'm sorry.

I'm so worried about you now.

You must survive.

I love you.

I really do, although I told you I don't and you cried so hard.

I'm sorry for lying about everything.

I'm sorry I hid everything to myself.

The more I do them, the more I feel I don't even deserve to be your dear.

Seriously, I miss your laughs and smiles.

I really miss them.

I really miss them, alot.

Although I know I can never get them back,
nor get you back.

I'm really sorry.

Please make it through tonight.

Please survive.

I want you to be alive.

I need you to live.

You're my everything.

I'm sorry for all.

iloveyouiloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou

i've decided to stop slacking and really typed them all out.

You know, I'm not good at typing and type really slow.

I'm sorry I don't have time anymore to type out a 100 for you to pray for your safety.

But I meant what I type.

I love you.

I really love you.

I do.

Please believe me and hold on.

I need you to.

I'm sorry dar..

-typed with tears, blood flowing & with a hurt hand.
the one who will always stand by you no matter what,
the one who wants you to be alive and there for her too,
your dear, hopefully always your dear.

:'(

fake de

2006-11-20T20:42:00.000+08:00

hey..sorry long time no blog arh..becaz like its alot things happened..then we decided to cool down..and like sort of break up..then like just be frens..realli good frens..

thats all we are now..hahas..its ok..at least got frens to be..rather than strangers..i dun wan update lers..remind me of alo stuffs we did..

go lers..buaiix *heartbroken*

happy ending..

2006-11-09T12:43:00.000+08:00

hmmm..kinda happy..we got back together i guess..becaz we solved the problem between us..and that was she was pressurized bahs..

she scared she is busy next year and dun have time for me..but i guess thats okays bahs..becaz its a new year afterall..hahas..should work harder..

and achieve for better results i guess...and we sort of talked about next year how it was going to be like all that..i guess..its better this way..

its better we talk things out..and try and solve it together i guess..its also like make us know wad the other party needs..and wad he or she wans..

that should be the way i guess..it should be like..we solve it together..and not like break up becaz of it..and try get back together after a long period of time..

she actually intend to wait till sec 4 over then like we patch things up..but then i guess..the time will change de bahs..then like ppl will change too..

even if i am not afraid she will change..but then time..will like fade the feelings de bahs..rite?hahas..so will wait?just plan something bahs..hahas..

then we sort of planned things together..like after school do homework together lor..then after that go home together all that kinda stuffs..

kinda happy that all this is solved..hahas..^^

i go lers..

<33her

on the road to hell

2006-11-08T13:04:00.000+08:00

my body..feels even much weaker today..so much more fragile..so much more vulnerable to attacks..

can anyone tell me..is life just a game?hahas..mayb its just a game to everyone bahs..hahas..

to me its a performance..lets say its a recital..a piano recital since i like piano so much..its like..there is climax..structure..lots of important stuffs..

lets say..my structure of my life is based on my family..while the climax is love..and all the other parts are frens..

now..i have lost frens and love..i guess..its time..i took a step down..and just take a long break off things..let things go..all of them go..

nth seems important to me anymore..it all feels so dim..so dark in my world..there is no colour..its all like the olden days..all black and white..

since..two of the things are gone..the performance is imcomplete..so it will certainly end..so its game over..

end of the recital..the performance..its that simple i guess..if u lose two important things..wads the point of keeping the structure..

if its just a hollow one..i have given up even my structure..but was holding on since pri 3 hoping that the other two will keep me going..

hopefully bring the structure that i wan back..and keep it together and stay as it is..but now..it seems to me..all three is lost..

all gone..i guess..its time..this performer retires and gets a long break and just sit back..take the backseat..just rest..forever in his little cottage..

mayb for me..its in heaven or in hell..i dunnoe..i guess..there is always a place for everyone there..so..its the end of the journey of my life..its..nth..

its nth but worthless..its si empty and hollow..nth is in it..all has been taken away to share..to give away..i guess so..its that way..

so..its the end..if u see it as a game..its game over..and there is no turning back..GAME OVER..there isnt a restart button for it..it just ends..

mine life ends here..i guess so..

--Tragically twisted. Beautifully tortured. He is travelling on his way to hell. Tormented.

2006-11-08T11:50:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry..

tired

2006-11-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

harlows..suddenly..my body just feels so weak..so tired..i feel like just giving my life now..nothing much seem to matter to me now..

i guess..its time..my body took a long rest..on the bed..mayb it wont wake..thats all i know..it would just lie there flat..motionless..

i guess..i realli dunnoe..my mind is in a whirl..i am lost..crying now i guess..dunnoe over wad..i guess..its too straining..hahas..

its time..i took a realli long break..i guess when i mean a long break..it means forever..i realli dunnoe how long i can still hold on..

how to bring it standing on its feet again..i feel i am tearing apart..breaking up..my arms seems to be dropping..strengthless..

my whole body just wishes for a rest..mayb..it wishes to rest forever..i dun even know if i may make it tonight..hahas..

i am just holding on to my last breath..hopelessly struggling with my scars..my spikes..i realli dunnoe..it all seems just too hurting..

too straining for me to handle..i guess..i should just let it down..let it rest..until..the day it comes..when i have got over it..

or something has brought it back..or else..its trying not to wake..facing the harsh truth..it rather be a coward..be something weak..

it just wishes to rest in peace..unless..wad it requires comes back..the part..the thing the heart needs..the most..keeps it beating..

i hope i get it back..and revive my lost soul..at least to find it back..to get it..to make it come back..or else..its me my body and in the grave..

under three feet..lying there..in a small little coffin..comfortably resting..awaiting to be rotten..thats all i can say..

buaiix..i go ler..

--tears flow endlessly..like a stream of blood flowing through an open wound..its been cut so deeply..it wont stop..hiding in a far corner..crying alone..

yeahs..her return

2006-11-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

hmmm..so happy..she come back lers..yesterday she touch down at 10pm..then i smsed her..hahas..

then..hmmm..she replied me..telling me she was on the plane..hahas..then chatted for awhile before she had to check out..

then she had to get her luguage and stuffs..hahas..then nvr chat lers..until she went home then online msn..

hahas..kinda sad bahs..so long nvr chat with her..so xiang nian her bahs..i dunnoes..mayb u can put it that way..

but then..at night the chat..didnt turn out quite well..i dunnoe why..i was realli down and it sort of affected her..badly..

it was my fault bahs..keep telling her sad stuffs..shes already so tired..hais..being too insensitive..think thats the main problem between us bahs..

then after that..kinda like quarrell..then both of us was hurt in a way..i realli dunnoe...the chat didnt turn out the way i expected things..

mayb..the ten days..has drawn us apart..hahas..mayb..i have changed..mayb she has changed..i dunnoe..time changes..humans change with it..

its like a simple fact and logic..hahas..mayb..it takes time..for us to get over the ten days stuffs..and also one more thing..make me disappointed..

hmmm..nvm about it..got over it lers..i have got over everything..her words made me ponder..and thought over everything..

it was realli my fault..shes so tired..yet i still shared bad stuffs with her..think it was realli mean of me to that too..hais..sry dear..hope u forgive me soon..

<33her

ninth day

2006-11-03T01:04:00.000+08:00

lets not say its 9th day bahs..it already the tenth day lers...in another like 21 hrs i can hear her voice or rather receive her smses lers..

its been rather bad today..haven been feeling happy all the time..have been sad..and i have broken down again bahs..

the last day i have to wait seems to be extremely long..and extremely painful..the future seems so unsure..

the feeling i have is like..its insecure..i dunnoes why..it seems like..the scar is acting up bahs..

the scar that suzhou exchange program left me..the scar that is caused when she is gone..it just hurts alot..

i realli dunnoe..hahas..now realli worrying about her too..she said that she was kinda down with a flu..hope she is alright..

hmmm..hope she doesnt come down with fever or anything serious..just wan her safety..hahas..

nvm then..the last day..realli hurts bahs..i dunnoe why...no one will know..becaz..its so hard to tell..

but then..aiyos..she come back lers..still cannot meet her..she needs rest though..from her long trip to china..its expected..

so i have to wait longer then i can see her..touch her..but at least..i can hear her voice..hahas..thats good enough lers..*contented*

but then..in any case..hope she had fun there..and enjoyed her trip..hopefully..hahas

these few days..i have been thinking more about the past stuffs we did..lots of happy memories..also bad ones..

not every relationship is perfect 10..hahas..so there are downs and ups..hmmm..have been like reflecting..

lots of those quarrells were all caused by me..being to insensitive..making her sad all the time..dun think i am good bahs..

keep making her sad and sometimes even crying..think should start changing for the better before she gets annoyed of me..

hmmm..i realli dunnoes..yesterday..was kinda happy..becaz she suddenly online and chatted with me for awhile though..but it was already enough..

hahas..realli happy lah..at least get to chat abit..rather than no contact at all..hahas..

but..

it onli made me miss her more and more..thats all it did..lols..its realli simple bahs..once u get something..u wan more of it..and demand more..

its probably human's greed thats making all this sadness and stuffs surrounding us..hahas..the root of all evil..

but anyway..it realli was enough lah..onli hoping she come back sooner..like NOW..=X but then its so damn impossible..hahas..

yeahs..so just stop thinking about it nick..lols..forget it..and just wait for a few more hours..and stop being too silly..thinking she would appear now..

ohhs..yah..one more thing..i dunoe why..today..a sudden urge brought me to causeway..hahas..then walk here walk there..made me think of lots..

plus that day went to cinema too..for the second time i mean..today was the third..i dunnoe..it just hurts..when even getting close it..hahas..

its all being too silly i guess..hahas..today went there buy chips lah..and go walk walk..then come back sleep lers..until 7+pm then wake..hahas

buy alot chips..she bound to nag at me..hahas..she dun allow me to eat too much..hahas..she scared i fall ill..

lalas..now she not here to nag..i wil eat my fill..all i wan..jkjk..i onli ate part of a packet onli..haven even finish..so think its ok..wont get naggings..

hahas..but then..realli lah..its rather hurting..somemore i went to colds storage..make me rmb stuffs we bought there..and alot things bahs..

aiyos..nicholas ah..will u stop thinking about stuffs..and get urself in bed?

hmmm..i have been wondering..hahas..mayb not so early sleep bahs..but..soon turning in..SOON..three of four more hours lor..lols..

but in any case..i go lers..nth much to write lers..

buaiix guys..

<33her

fifth and sixth day

2006-10-31T17:58:00.000+08:00

i missed one day..due to the events that happened yesterday..hahas...

lots of things happen worx yesterday..was lynette bday..then today is howard de bday..hahas..

so damn cute sia..then all my brothers come my house celebrate lor..hahas..the nicest day this whole year..

aiya..the best part was when me, ronnie, justin, jc go down stairs play soccer..so damn funny..lots of fun..laughter..jokes..hahas..

yeahs..then we had nice food also..mum ordered KFC..alot sia..lols..then eat eat eat...cannot finish somemore..

but then one thing that make me feel lousy..one..spoiler..hahas..

nvm lah..overall the day was fun..hahas..play alot things..

gamble..soccer..com..watch something we should not..lols..and lastly..birthday bash..which we missed though..becaz jc was angry..

then in the end nvr bash le..becaz he need to go home mah..then after that..then he nvr bash lor..but then we also nvr lah..hahas..

before 12 today...still got chance to bash howard de..lols..mayb..we 11.30 go howard house and bash him..jkjk..

but then..anyway..all these things..seem to have cheered my up lah..hahas..i still miss her though..its feels faded..but..its still there..hahas..

i will wait lah..waited so long le..still got a few more days onli..then she is back lers..then can do stuffs together lers..realli miss her..

hahas..dunnoes bahs..should try not to think about it..or else later..breakdown again..something which i hate..hahas..but then..

yesterday was realli fun lah..hahas..one last thing..jc..dun angry arh...hahas..also..ronnie arh..return me my cap..

lols..the next time we tawn will be when jc bday..hahas..20 nov..muahahs..one week before HER de bday..aiyos..so qiao..lols..

anyway..i love my bros lah..huat arh...

but then..

i love her more..XDDD

lols..i go lers bahs..pray for her safety..hope she is ok..hahas..dun wan anything to happen to her..i go ler guys

buaiix buaiix

<3>

forth day

2006-10-29T17:12:00.000+08:00

harlows guys..its me again lor..today forth day lers..hahas..

today actually veri busy de..

then becaz of my fever..some dun need to go.. IPW i nvr go..due to high fever in the morning..it was like 39.6 degrees lehx..

lol..go there equals i die..lols.. anyway..today arh..went for piano lessons again lor..

first one..theory..SUX lols..walked past a place i dun wan to walk pass de..walked past CWP..

think about lots of stuffs.. all about the things she and i did when she was still around..and haven go china yet..

think about things that we did there..unknowingly..i walked to the cinema..i illusionise bahs..then walked there le..

illusionised me and her queueing up to buy tickets for movie..then held hands and stuffs..

think about lots of things that happened..then dunnoes why bahs..hahas..tears just ran down my cheeks..hahas..mayb..miss her too much..

hmm..theory was so damn boring..nth to say about it..lols.. then it was practical time..muahahas..my favourite..becaz today got practise..

or else its scolding session again..lols..

hmmm..today play quite well..then mum nvr come pick me up nor bring me there..becaz she has a wedding dinner..hahas..okok..

then went home with teacher lor..walked downstairs with her..where she parked her car..

she offered to drive me home..how great hor..hahas..today at practical veri happy lah..no scoldings at all..

^^ so nice to be a good student in piano teacher's class..hahas..anyway.. i miss her badly..she hasnt reply any of my smses..

hahas..nvm..wait lor..or wad..see lor..wait for her come back bahs..doubt she will reply..

yah but its ok lah..yesterday i ask jia wen how she was doing through her bf and jia wen said she was ok..hahas..

*glad* hope she doesnt fall ill though..she everytime come back then fall sick de..veri worried..hahas..

anyway..hope she takes care.. i go wait for my phone call liao..

one more things..i love u dear..^^ hope u come back soon..miss u..

<33her>

first day i realli cried

2006-10-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm..today is the first day that i realli cried out..and break down..

hmmm..nvm lah...anyway..still need to wait mah..still got like..7 days worx..hahas..nvm lah..wait lor..

no choice rite? impossible ask me go to china rite? lols..thats so impossible lah..hais..anyway..its nothing to cry..

hahas..thinking about lots of past stuffs..hahas..alot of things that we have done before..

its things we have no control over..its destiny..hahas..

but then..we once to eat sweets together..shared them..hold hands..lots of stuffs we did..just rushed through my head..

today i went past the provision shop and bought the sweet that we used to eat..hahas..then lots of memories just flashed through..

when walking home..lots of illusions just appeared..i saw her and me..hahas..walking together bahs..then just like normal..

but now..its so impossible..not even say hold hands bahs..just to see her..its already a problem..

or mayb..its even worst..its already not easy to hear her voice..to hear her nag at me sometimes..but then..now..all these wont happen lers..hahas..

but..u all may think i dun like to be nagged..but then..she not realli nagged lah..like..care bahs..then say me..

then now..nvr hear it..veri uneasy..even when nvr hear her voice..veri sad lers..somemore there seems to be no replies from her worx..

i smsed her..but then there is no reply worx..nvm lah..think that they are busy and stuffs..hahas..

the sweet i ate..tastes realli bitter..hahas..sweet in the mouth bitter in the heart..as if got stabbed worx..so pain..='(

mayb..should..just stop eating it..becaz once i eat it...tears will just flow out worx..hahas..i also dunnoes why..anyway..i hope she is safe and sound...

hmmm..pray for her bahs..she so blur de..lols..everytime knock into things..hahas..hope she is fine..not injured or sick..

and one more thing..i love u..hope u come back soon dear..^^ hope the time would just fly past okies?hehex..

i miss u lots..=(

<33>

2nd day

2006-10-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

lets see..today is onli the second day..one fifth of the intended torture..

hahas..still have to wait around 8 more days before she comes back...

lets talk about today then..realli tired day..PW set up booth..must put up panels and stuffs..and lots of stuffs..and do alot lah..until quite late..

hmmm..i dunnoe wad to do without her..just feel so lonely and sad..today was relali tired and realli just plain missing her..

the way she look at me..the way she hold my hand..hahas..i dunnoes worx..

just miss her worx..why must this happen worx..why must she go lehx..lols..or rather..why i nvr go lehx..lols..hais..so sians..

later i think i will keep on dota dota dota with my bros..and continue to rot bahs..lols..

dunnoes bahs..lols..now realli weeping lehx..i go lers bahs..

T-T *sobs*

i love u..hope can see u soon..

<33her

first day..of...extreme torture...

2006-10-25T19:36:00.000+08:00

hmmm..today is the first day of extreme torture for me..hahas..as in...emotionally lah..

due to someone realli important in my live is gone?

hahas..yeahs yeahs..u all should know who the person is lah..then dun say so much liao..hahas..

anyway..today onli first day..i already missin u lers..i wonder..down the other nine days..wad will i do worx..

i realli think..hahas..nvm..i am trying not to tear...to cry..to weep..but then..realli..veri hard worx..

nth realli happened much today..although its realli meaningful lah..

went out with my brothers lah..hahas..although long time nvr go out with them and play arh..still in good status lah..i love them..

but then..i love HER more..hahas..but then its like so impossible to see her now..

i smsed her..but then..her phone apparently seems to be off worx..think teacher took it..everyone de..hahas..nvm lah..i will wait..

hmm..today arh..do alot nice stuffs..go 806 lor..hahas usual de mah..then we all go barber there..

all go ask the auntie..dye hair how much...

but then i nvr ask lah.. becaz already got lobang liao..

hmmm..then pei them lor..go ask ask..alot stuffs lah..then play basketball..so long nvr play liao sia..abit rusty..or rather all of us rusty liao lah..lols..

dunnoes lah..the funniest thing..got one malay fat kia..go say us balaputo..lol..then we all there laughing..zi yun somemore wan push him..

then ronnie say..i think u push him u fly first..

he like gorilla so fat..lols..anyway..realli lah..today..kinda covered my sadness away..its not alot..trying..not to cry..hahas..its a hard task..hahas

anyway..i go dota liao

one last thing...i love u..>>msg to her..

<33her

I love you dar..

2006-10-24T14:04:00.000+08:00

Hacked into Dar's blog..

Saw Dar's blog,
full of grief and sadness,
affected me much bahs.

What I wanna say to you dar is that,
It's a 10 days separation, not a lifetime one,
I'll be back soon,
not to fret or worry of ur dear's extinction, kaes?

She won' be extinct, till a really long time.

Even though I'm like gone for 10 days,
but I'll really miss you de.

Just don't cry.

I really hate myself when you start crying,
or even when you thought of crying.

I just want you to make full use of the 10 days when I'm gone,
which is kinda like impossible to you,
'cause I just know.

Right?

Well, in any case, I just love you alot dar.

I never knew..
that I love you so much.

Now that the time has come for us to bid farewell,
for 10 whole days,
let's just get over it, okay?

I really am crying now.

I wonder what'll happen to me during the 10 days.
I really am wondering, and frightened.

During hard times for me,
you stood by me and really you were the motivation.

During sad times,
you really cheered me up.
You may not know it,
and it may not mean much to you,
yet it does, alot to me.

The jokes you made may be lame to onlookers,
yet I really get the message.
What you wanted me to be was to be happy.
I know it, and I am.

During happy times,
you shared yours with me and mine with you.
We will not be happy individually,
we'll be happy together.

During the raintimes which hurt us badly,
you did not neglect my feelings despite you being badly hurt too.

Your words, your presence, your whole self,
they really meant alot to me.

Dar, you really mean alot to me,
and I can't do without you.
Neither do you, I suppose.

Thank you, dar, for the 3 full months of wonderful memories.
I really enjoyed them, very much.

Although some could be sad and really painful at times,
but we managed to pull through,
and unexpectedly, the bond strengthens,
and we were more opened to each other about our lives.

The love just got stronger.
Hasn't it?

You hadn't slept for days, and I'm beginning to worry.
Now that you're finally resting,
really made me felt better,
but not when I heard you're weeping.

Dar, I love you. Please cry not.

It hurts me when you cry, real.

What I wanna say to you, dar, is that,
I know I meant alot to you,
you do too to me,
and definitely, I love you alot,
although I never really managed to express it well.

I really do love you alot, dar.

Please take care of yourself when I'm gone for the 10 days.

Cry not, dar.

Forget it if you're thinking of rebutting with..
'Can i weep or sob then?'
'Cause it really hurts me lots.

Take care, dar.

(':

I love you, ever.

--written with tears and love,
~aliv.

<333you,dar

tears

2006-10-24T12:38:00.000+08:00

hmmm..today veri sad bahs..hahas..last day lers..

to spend with her..or rather we are not meeting..due to something that happened..

her mum asked her to do some chores for her bahs..so she is not free..she has to go to her aunt house and run here and there..

hmmm..dunnoes worx..now at home alone..veri sad..just dunnoe wad to do..nth seems to cheer me up..

i haven slept for five days lers..hahas..nth much..just turning into a panda soon..hahas..

dunnoes bahs..i cant sleep..once i close my eyes..i will think of lots of stuffs..hahas..then cannot sleep le..

hmmm..dunnoes bahs..mayb worry too much about her lers..and mayb miss her realli too much lers..then at night cannot sleep..

becaz she going suzhou ler..ten days straight..somemore on her bday she cannot celebrate with me..becaz she going overseas..

hahas..nvm lah..its her parents de plans..hahas..should not interfere or anything lah..anyway..dunnoes bahs..

that would be another 7 days that she would be gone lah..hahas..so makes it 17 days that she is gone..hahas..nvm de lah..wait lor..10 days is already 240hrs

plus the seven days..realli is going to kill me lehx..hahas..dunnoes lah..wait lor..hahas..no choice mah..

hahas..now..kinda crying while typing this post..hahas..nvm then..i go lers..

buaiix guys..

<33her

:(( i am so sad..

2006-10-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

i am so sad now..:(( but then nvr realli told her about it lah..

hahas..becaz she going to suzhou soon ler mah..plus alot things happen lah..

hahas..then like that lor..veri sad lah..then its like in another one day time she is going lers..

plus today was the last day i could see her..could hold her hand and stuffs lah..

then after that would have to wait for ten days before all this can be done or to see her..

to even hear her voice again..or mayb even receive her sms lah...hahas..lols..realli sians worx..

those ten days...i wonder i wan to do wad worx..hmmm..mayb go and die..? sleep everyday for 23 hrs?

lols..hmmm...or just rot at home..and grow as fat as pudge =x..hahas..anyway..realli lah..i have no plans..

once go into causeway will think alot..hahas..so better not go there sia..lols..hahas..dun wan cry there suddenly..

anyway..good luck to those who going to suzhou..hope all of u all have a good time there lah..hahas..just enjoy your trip there lor (:

anyway..i go do my things lers..buaiix guys..

<33her

today

2006-10-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

hahas..hmmm..today..went to watch death note with quoway, jessie and alot ppl lah...hahas..but then i sit with her..

then nvr sit with them..wow..the movie was so damn cool lor..lols..the devil realli looks so damn nice...got a joker face..

the part i realli like is the wings..damn nice..damn big..then the features realli nice sia..lols..damn it..then it realli looks so damn cool..lols..

but then the story abit lame..write the name then the person die..lols..if realli got this kind of book then the whole world dun need police liao..

neither need anyone to enforce law..but then it was realli lots of betrayal over power and justice..hahas..the guy killed his own gf to fufill his plan..

damn so damn cruel lor..lols..if u were the guy..would u do that?i dont think so lehx..lols..realli damn cruel..anyway..the show talks about lots of stuffs..the god of death just ROX...

wahahas..anyway..i go do my stuffs lers..xDD

buaiix guys

<33HeR

injured

2006-10-18T16:48:00.000+08:00

aiyos...today is a boring boring day...first talk about school bahs...

hmmm...went to school..everything went well..was trying to talk to her..

dunnoes bahs..lols..yesterday night realli funny worx..she smsed me at 11.52pm asking me sleep ler mah..then actually just fallen asleep..

then was awoken by the stupid vibration thingy..hahas...then couldnt sleep until like 3am then woke at 4.30 am again..lols..hahas..then nvr sleep lers..

hmmm..then today was realli blur at school bahs..keep knocking into things..keep doing wrong things..lols..

then at DnT room suddenly accident happened lers..i cut my hand with a screw thing..actually was helping xingyi and her..get it out..becaz it stucked..

then accidentally cut..then also nvr feel...till much later...then it started bleeding bahs..after i went home..then now still got wound thingy..still hurts..

hmmm..anyway..went bracers crap shit..realli pain..becas this month needed to do scaling shit..aiyas..then cut my gums..then bleed..then now also pain..

lols..today alot injuries sia..alot absentees also..hahas..then veri weird..not much ppl..anyway..will take care de..buaiix guys..

<33>

so bored now

2006-10-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

now alone sia..aiyos..no ppl pei me chat..she offline..

her msn crash..lols..then later she sleeping early..while i cant sleep..lols..hahas..

anyway..that day i and her went to watch a movie..abit lame de lehx..

it was meant to be a horror film bahs..while i was loling through the whole movie..

so was her..lols..the movie was stay alive..it was about wad a game name that..then the things inside came alive..

it was a story of wad a elizabeth countess de lah..wan take wad revenge on human..and all that crap..lols..

then they wad attack here attack there..lols..make me laugh until siao..hahas..dunnoes..think its funny lah..lols..hahas..

anyway..the movie was abit touching..becaz someone scarificed his life..to save someone else..hahas..almost cry sia..lols..

aiyos..anyway..i go ler guys..

<33>

feeling bored now..relieved

2006-10-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

hahas...today so shuang..after exams lers..woos..hehex..so nice sia..after exams lers..i am free from all constrains..i can go anywhere at any time..

without anyone barking at me like a dog..hahas..realli nice sia..hmm...but then now abit sad and bored worx..

someone is gone..think she got invaded abd got scolded by her mum bahs..dun wan rub it in lor..so..might as well i dun sms her or call her anymore for now..

in case her mum knows about us then she is dead..she will be grounded for the whole holidays..then lols liao..cannot go out..cannot go anywhere..cannot do anything..no freedom..then again i will be guilty as it is my fault mah..

hahas..so..to stop it from happening..i must control my fingers from touching my HP anymore and sms her..hahas..or press CALL..lols..worst thing later he mum pick up..

lols..then i immediately like hang HER lers..think its like death sentence..hahas..anyway..i am so bored now..and i am missing her and thinking about lots of stuffs..

alot things running through my head now..like going be nuts soon..hahas..realli alot alot stuffs going through..

anyway..now eating potato chips..alot sia...now abit sore throat liao..=x..if she knows..she sure K me..

die liao..better dun tell her..or rather pray she doesnt see this post..=x

buaiix guys..go lers..

<33>

MY HAIR!! NOW BOTAK LIAO =.=

2006-10-08T17:15:00.000+08:00

wah..all thanks to farid arh...now hor..i damn bu shuang sia..zzz..all 'thanks' to him hor..now i like tio shave until like hairless..or rather BOTAK!!

arghh..just now went to salon at ang mo kio there cut hair..was abit she bu de my hair..keep quite long lers..skip two spot checks..now need cut...veri ke xi..

aiyos..now have to keep during holidays again lor..hahas..sians arh...lols..somemore one good thing..hahas..onli cut side burns and the fringe..nvr cut the back at all..onli thin abit nia..hahas..woos so good sia..=x

hey guys give me opinion lehx..during holidays should i go highlight my hair lehx?lols..my mum today ask me de..ask me whether wan to highlight my hair to red or some other colour then school reopen lers then dye back or cut away the highlighted parts..hahas..

hmmm..was thinking about dying my hair..but then mum said it would be veri troublesome if have to dye..hahas..hmmm...so she said it was better to highlight onli..hahas..hmmm..wad colour should i highlight lehx?hahas..was thinking about it..purple? red? blue? white? gold? brown? lols..so many sia.. dunnoe which one sia..must ask the hairdresser then know..hahas..

sians worx..now not much ppl online..alot doing work i think..last minute de..hahas..dunnos bahs..hahas..now i wan go orh orh liao..and wait for someone to call me..hahas..nitez guys..buaiix..

<33 and MiSSinG `eu

2006-10-08T01:19:00.000+08:00

><
paiseh paiseh hors..

I will never delete any of the posts I blog de lharx!

Hahas..

Really, I mean what I said.

Although sometimes you hurt me,
kinda deeply and painfully,
I still love you that much bahs!
(:

Maybe that's the special thing about love?

Hahas..

I'm getting kinda lame lers..

Hahas..

Really can't believe myself wors.

I feel kinda guilty today..
Made you so darn sad..
As in, when I was angry then scolded you..

Really sorry,
and at this time,
I suppose you'll say 'nevermind' bahs.

I wonder if it's a good or a bad thing,
and whether I am worthy to accept it.

Really, yesterday's thing wasn't your fault,
not entirely.

I mean, if something happens to a person,
it couldn't possibly be that person's fault entirely.

So, I wouldn't want you to feel guilty alone.
I'll share it with you.

Guess that's the most appropriate decision,
right?

One day I may be gone,
but I shall stay by you forever.

You know de right?

I trust you that you know it,
and believe in this faith.

Physical separation doesn't actually matter that much, because even when you're not there you're always there in my head. That will never ever change, because of our special bond. Remember the bond..

That's what I want to tell you and make you remember,
when I'm leaving for Suzhou and Taiwan..

(:

And, yes, one mroe thing,

I love you dearly..

If you ever ask me where you're in my heart,
I'd say you're always at the deepest part of my heart.
It's where I keep my most beloved person.

You're nothing in my life but my most
treasured
cherished
loved
beloved
guy..

I can never offer you love except,
selfless love and unconditional love.

I just love you,
that's all.

And there's no other reasons to why I love you.

I can't even answer that question myself.

Maybe there's only an answer to that question,
i love you..

Really I do.

Stop doubting the love I have for you ler,
okay?

(:

--dedicated to blog owner.nick.by;aliv

it's not your fault..

2006-10-07T15:07:00.000+08:00

Truly, it's not your fault..
Stop blaming yourself ler okays?

Sometimes, things that happen in life may not be what you really wanted,
but sort of in the end resulted that way.

Really, what I want to put into your head is that all that happens
recently, is not just your fault only.

But, both parties' fault.

I mean, if you were at fault, I'd surely be at too, right?

Just want to let you know, I love you..

And stop, hating or blaming yourself for it ler,
okay?

Promise me, will ya?

(:

Sometimes, you may hurt me yet not know it,
and i silently bear it on my own.

But, it'll soon all be over.

I don't want to hurt you by saying 'you hurt me'..

I truly don't.

I just want you to be happy.

I love you, dar..

-wink-

(;

--dedicated to blog owner.nick.by;aliv

sad sad sad case...

2006-10-07T12:07:00.000+08:00

aiyos..wad did i do sia..hais hais hais..yetserday actually say hao lers..that today can go out..but then it was my fault..no one else to be blamed..actually wan go library with her de..go do the reserach thingy for the art de..
then mayb after that go catch a movie or something..aiyos..but then hor..yesterday..her mum saw her msn..that we chatting..then say wad..who is this guy all that then ask alot..then hais..her mum grounded her..cannot use com cannot online msn..cannot go out..
aiyos..all becaz of me lah..wanted to see she was there or was she busy..then in the end like that lor..damn to myself..orh bee lor..hahas..
now bo bian..trapped at home..doing stupid stuffs..reading about maths..and doing more practises lor..hahas..no choice bahs..hahas..anyway..it will help me bahs..then do lor..hahas..it would help me improve...hope wad i do b4 come out for exams lor..hahas..anyway..good luck guys..

<333>

hmmm...kinda ok..

2006-10-05T20:05:00.000+08:00

aiyos...this week so stress sia..so busy sia..lols...everyday...pei her go home after exams rather than go out with my brothers..=x...sry guys...stress arh..and dun feel like gambling anymore..lols..anyway...u guys rox...but then now exams lah..hahas...study first...got time then party with u all lor..hahas..anyway..this yr end...will have gathering lehx..hahas...and i will see someone i dun wan to see at all..by the name of ng yen chuan...same surname...but then he veri guai lan lehx...lol..i also dunnoe why..lols...today tio guai lan by him again...so long nvr see him lers..he still haven change sia..lols...anyway...nuthing much lah...hahas...anyway looking forward about it lehx..hahas..anyway...today..hmmm...went home with her...then met ariff on the way lor...ahhas...then he told me about why he and the ivan fight...and it was all becaz of a lame reason...becaz the ivan guy scold him farker...then he buay song..then fight..lols...wad the hell...lols..then everyday scold diff ppl farker...i must fight the whole world arh?lols...hahas...and then...hmmm...she got cut worx..aiyos..sad sad sad...hahas...and she say her hand veri numb...anyway...now i go do my stuffs lers...till then miss u guys..hahas..i go study liao..buaiix..

<33 my bros and her..

so bored and stress worx...

2006-10-01T21:08:00.000+08:00

aiyos...exams come liao...so bored worx..everyday study study and more study...aiyos...hahas..then veri stress lehx...lols..aiyos...hahas...lols...hehex...then realli sians lehx...hahas...dunnoes bahs...after exams then update..lols..

damn angry sia

2006-09-26T21:22:00.000+08:00

zzz...damn sia...someone make me waited for one hour sia...today...damn angry now worx...and that person is non other than the lamest guy in class quoway...zzz...somemore...he make me wait not of a good reason lor...he make me wait one hour becaz...we actually say wan do project thing together...i send him the music then he just join and add some effects onli..then he say he will online at 7-8...then i wait from 7.30-8...wait wait wait...lalas...then tmd...i wait until 9 sia...also he no online..then i called his home...then his mum say he go out for project...then okays bahs...then i decided to forgive him...then after that...about 9.10 he called me...then he say he go out...then i ask him go where...then he say...go out with zi yun...then i say go where! then he say...he go play with zi yun...wah damn nice hor...make me wait like an idiot sia...for one whole hour...in front of the com screen sia...he think i zia ba bo tai ji zo...wah damn angry now sia...feel like counting like he make me wait how long...how many secs...all convert into punches sia..arghh...somemore for an idiot reason...he still dare say.."i go out play with zi yun lah..can send me now anot...dun like this lehx..." wad i like this like that lor...u try waiting 15 mins...u already kpkb...now is i wait 1 and a half hour...damn tu lan sia...anyway...dun say lers...later i smash my com sia...lols...xDD...buaiix guys...good luck for ur exams...

sick larhs...

2006-09-19T11:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm...today...sick worx...veri ill...yesterday was already in a bad condition lers...hahas...and one more thing i patched with her lers ((: hahas...and then...like...we break seems to like have brought us closer lers...much much closer ler worx..hahas...anyway...now at home...all alone...then morning i sms her...lols...then i was like veri blur...see the time wrongly...8 am i see become 9 am...lols...xDD...then i ask her now IPW arh...then she was like...weix...u blur king..now FT lah...then i took a closer look at the clock then found that i saw wrongly...lols..hehex...
then after that...realli sian lehx...keep sleeping and sleeping...i think hor...i becoming affiliates of justin and ah bee kor kor liao...keep sleeping...lols...both of them also sleep alot alot de...now..i think i am worst...once i eat medicine liao...immediately will doze off to dreamland de...lols...hahas...now...hmmm...eating some porridege my mummy cooked me before she went to work..hahas...later...need go take medicine liao...hahas...then later sure fall asleep again lers...lols...
so...gotto bear with the illness...and keep resting and keep drinking lots of water...hahas...and rest more lor...and lots of stuffs lah...veri bo liao at home...keep playing games also veri sian wad...keep play play play...boring...reali wan see HER now...
wishing for the impossible lah...lol...anyway...need rest more lor and take care...or she is gonna worry and nag at me again liao...and she will angry also...=x..hehex...xDD...anyway...i go ler lah...hahas...just finished lunch lers...ate medicine lers...now...lols...dreamland time!!xDD

-missin u- N!CK®

broke up...=((

2006-09-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

today sad lah...so will my other days be...from today onwards...hahas...none of them will be realli happy...hahas...realli none...hahas...we shared 55 days together...and today we break lers...hahas...real fast bahs...hahas...becaz i realli love her...hahas...but then...she request for break...hahas...then realli sad bahs...dunnoe wad to do..this morning still ok de...then dunnoe bahs...she said that something has come between us...okies...then i ask her wad is it...but then..she nvr tell me...hahas...nvm bahs...its her choice...but...realli hope i can patch things up...and get her back...hahas...or else...i wont be happy lers...until my wounds are healed bahs...we two together realli happy bahs...days we spent together...the movies we watched...hahas...realli think of it...hahas...realli...nice bahs...everytime she pei me...after swimming...hahas...then sometimes she project i would pei her...but then now...think its over ler bahs...those happy days...gone...hahas...hope i got the fever...that i got when i was sec one...when i forget part of my stuffs...hahas...hope i get it...and forget my pain...and forget my sorrows...and hopefully continue with my life...or if even better...i couold get her back...hahas...but...she said its impossible lah...hahas...i can onli be her kor...so...hahas...live with it...although i dun wan..hahas...bo bian...hahas...anyway...realli hope to patch things up...hahas...go lers guys...buaiix...

*wishing for the impossible*

worried...

2006-09-08T15:27:00.000+08:00

due to someone asking me to update lor...lols...hahas...but then also...wan update de...lols...ohhs yah...just now...actually she need to go to dunnoe wad family meeting ders...lols...then after that she told her mum...she got alot homework...then she nvr go lers...and also she dun wan go...becaz of this guy...or rather its her cousin bahs....like keep treating her like his gf like that...keep hugging her from her back...like veri bian tai to me...zzz....becaz if from back...means....erm...dun wan elaborate lah...aiyos...hahas...and somemore...always like try french her...arghh...but then she like keep rejecting...then the guy keeps coming...like so bhb...arghhh....then also mayb i am abit jealous bahs...xDD...who wont...lols...someone french ur gf...aiyos...lols...somemore...keep like putting his hand on her waist...arghhh...if like that....like molester...he like veri dangerous...like pervert...arghh...dun let me see him...lols...anyway...she nvr go...*cheers as if singapore scored 10-0 against brazil*..hahas..then dun need worried...or else would be worried...that she might be dunnoe...we both scared...like the guy might hanky-panky lor...hahas...then like worried she would go...but then...hahas...heng she nvr bahs...yeahs...xDD...i go ler guys...buaiix..

tired...real tired...

2006-09-08T10:17:00.000+08:00

hahas...harlows everyone...kinda like sad...when i writing this bahs...hahas...was chatting with her a moment ago...until we start...dunnoes bahs...like kinda quarrelling...becaz of something...dunnoes...hahas...anyway....u guys think its hard and tired to give ? and easier to take....lols...dunnoes bahs...mayb to me...easier to give...lols...weird me...hahas...dunnoes bahs...but then now...mayb...feel that giving all the time is kinda tired...and i am realli going to tire out real soon...and this may stop...and i will start taking lers...in order to protect myself bahs...becaz giving is like...not a good way to protect myself...starting with frens bahs...always give then they might take advantage bahs...dunnoes bahs...mayb....thats why bahs...always get kinda abit bullied or something like that...then other side...lols...nuthing much bahs...hahas...dunnoes...hahas...anyway...i go lers...buaiix

real happy bahs...

2006-09-07T09:58:00.000+08:00

hahas...yesterday touch down in singapore then on my HP...then alot of sms bahs...lols...lets see.... about 7 from her...or more...xDD and...hmmm....h from ah bee kor kor...and...a few more from my frens...lols....totally flooded...then hahas...slowlyreplied back lor...hahas...anyway...the trip to hongkong was kinda fun bahs...or for me...hehex....bought alot of things worx...hehex...spend about hmmm...2k+ going 3k...hahas...alot i think...hehex...hmmm...lets see....i bought 12 tee shirts...and two pairs of shoes....and a few more things....lols...roughly about like that bahs...hahas...and my trip there realli missed her...like in a jail...cannot go out like that...so damn lonely and bored....hahas...but then kinda happy its over ler bahs...and hahas...i saw one interesting thing worx...at the tea house there...realli funny sia....there is this guy...he pour his tea into a bowl...then like uses it like water to wash all his utensils....then i was like o.O...wad the hell he doing worx...suppossedly its clean...and hongkong de water is dirty...if u wash it with their tea [obviously made of water] isnt it making it all ur untensils dirty lehx....he was like an acrobatic....onli one who uses chopsticks fork spoon all that...lols...kinda weird guy...then also....i bought onli 5 milo tees...sobs...wanted to buy more....but then...damn expensive worx...its like $100 sgd per piece...then i was like !!@_@!!
so expensive....then i was told...just imported de...then i was like...' chey....no wonder lah...' lols...but then also got buy afew pieces lah...so kinda happy lor...hahas...better than nothing =P....but then...come back lers...then was tired...hahas....but then nvm lah...then after that...i went alot places to eat...ate alot of good food...which is gonna make me fat alot...lols...hahas...eat all their local specialty....all damn nice...like roast goose...double boiled milk...dim sum [cheap and nice]....still got alot....but then these are the main few....oh yes...my favourite...woos...damn nice de...roasted pidgeon...hehex...realli nice....hahas...after the flight...i came back lers...then pei her...hahas...then talk on phone....then she play audition...lols...then i pei her lor...so long nvr play....kinda lose touch lers...somemore...i hand got a cut...hahas...nvm bahs...anyway...since i am back...make up the four days i owe her...lols...hahas...anyway...i go lers lah...and one thing...
P.S. forget get gift for everyone.... =x [even shannon] you wan can come hamtam me...hahas...i willingly let u hamtam...hahas...buaiix...

sad sad sad sad

2006-08-30T20:44:00.000+08:00

hahas...long time no update lers...becaz of exams lah...hahas...but then...now i am back lurrhhs...hahas...then realli...sian...then...hahas...nuthing much happened...hahas...today...went out with her...then...okies bahs...nuthing realli happened much...we went there realli too early lers...until cathay haven even open...lols...hahas...then we go MOS burger lor...then go eat eat the talk talk...then after that talk about lots of things bahs...alot about school...then we happen to talk about henry...lols...then she said that... sometimes he is like a big daddy in our class...lols.... kinda true bahs...becaz he always...rush us up to art room and to where ever we need to go...then after that we went up lers...then still quite early bahs...then go buy tickets...then after that sit there bahs...then saw some ppl i know...but then nvr tell her...hahas...then...after that we go in ler...then in the cinema...behind us actually no ppl ders...then someone go run there and sit...then keep kicking my chair...seriously...i feel like kicking his face...zzz...then through out the whole movie...my chair was like a OSIM chair...cannot stop shaking...zzz...then veri tu lan...but then nvm bahs...then see her like abit sian...then like try talk to her bahs...hahas...then after that movie finish lers...pei her go home norhx...then at night...dunoe wad happened bahs...suddenly...we were like quarrelling abit...becaz she feel that she was abandonned by me...becaz my mum wan use com then i forget tell her...then...seriously...think it was my fault bahs...then she say...if this continues...all my feelings[alot of them] will turn into hatred...then i was like pretty sad bahs...hais...dunnoes bahs...but then...seriously its my fault...sorry =''((...gtg ler bahs...hahas...buaiix...=''((

sad sad N!CK®

aiyos...

2006-08-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

aiya...why the anonymous like to scold ppl behind ppl back...come out talk lah...even if...dun wan talk...use real name lah...scared wad sia...hum ji simi...lols...wan say ppl...then realli use real name lah...as if i will eat u arh?lols?wan scold ppl...then use ur own name lah...yi ren zhuo shi yi ren dang mah...aiyos...then...use ur name lah...lols...dun hum ji hum ji bai lers...realli...u testing my patience too far...i given u lots of chances...i think i know who is anonymous...u seriously...take it too far...then...dun say...i hit gals lers...u are not gals...seriously...dampen my mod everyday...hahas...anyway...gtg lers...

bored

2006-08-19T12:34:00.000+08:00

hahas...these few days...cannot go out with her...hais...realli sian sian sian...somemore got common test...then even more jia lat lers...realli grounded...abit late...kena scolding from mum...then scold scold scold...then scold her back...then she wan hit here hit there...then nvm lor...lols...hahas...anyway...realli realli realli sian lah...nuthing to do...except maths port and homework...kns...realli jia lat....nuthing to look up to...hais...bored....anyway...i go eat lunch lers...bye guys...

new game

2006-08-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

hahas...started on a new game with her...i played with her...she introduce to me de...hahas...its i think...called audition sea bahs...kinda fun and easy to play...hahas...just use keyboard can lers...no need use mouse...ahahas...then i owaz win de...starting play with strangers a few game...lose...then after that start winning lers...think got used to the game lers...then now can even finisher lers..hahas...realli happy...then hope i can play more with her lor...actually starting is pei her onli...now realli like it ler bahs...hahas..then hope can play with her sis...then thrash her...becaz she keep talking nonsense...lols...hahas...anyway...i go ler lah...go have dinner...buaiix...

fun day =)))

2006-08-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

hahas...today...realli fun sia...had lots of fun lor...today...early morning went to art class...then abit sian sian de...becaz...kns sia...the idiot project...need paint wad idiot thing...got kettle and then got pieces of cloth lah...realli hor...see liao will abit lame diaos...but then...teacher say i did quite well...then added abit of details for me...hahas...then after that met up with her...then after that she run around with irene...then kinda pang seh me...and juliana...realli sian...aiyos...
then after that...we went to the block they wan to film there de...then when before we went there...irene was abit angry dunno of wad...then i think was becaz of me taking her away to help me...but then...realli...i gave them time to do lers...but then...they in the end...also dun wan do...also they nvr do anything...then i and her wait for wei ren and kai wei and 'alien' to come...lols...alien is chin hee lah...wei ren say ders =x....hahas...anyway...when we do the film thing...chin hee looked realli weird...his face...wei ren call me to look...then when i look closely that time...its was like his face like a zombie...then his mouth like realli like so weird...then after that...he walk even worst...he looks like a idiot...lols...woops...=x...i so bad...hahas...then after that...we film alot times also beacz of him...aiyos...and also...wei ren...lols...sometimes he forget his lines...same as chin hee...lols...then actually...wan go home with her...but then...aiyos...nvm bahs...she went home with juliana...then nvm lor...dun disturb them lah..hahas...then b4 i and wei ren go...we purposely say to chin hee...'alien later u take the bus will fly?' then i was like LOL...hahas...realli bad sia...then he was like sian diao...then also laugh...lols...hahas...but realli conclude lah...today was realli fun...and realli...thanks HER, irene, juliana and wei ren for their help lahs...i lurve u guys...hahas...thx lah...realli...especially HER....she helped me act...alot...hahas...thanks...i go ler guys...buaiix X))

boring day

2006-08-12T13:19:00.000+08:00

hahas...yesterday sleep realli late...about 1am bahs...becaz sms with HER...becaz when we sms that time...her idiot sis...keep disturbing...then threaten tell her mum about us...diaos...aiyos...realli troublesome lah her sis...and kinda i think she is a idiot lor...abit of thing also wan to di siao siao...hahas...nvm bahs...she say awhile more...it would be over ler...when she get used to us...hahas...then after that...talked to her when about 12.50...then after three minutes...suddenly her mum came out....i heard shouting...'u better faster go sleep now!!'lols...hahas...then she immediately say 'okok bye bye i go sleep liao' then reply her mum' coming lah..'lols...hahas...realli funni...she realli scared of her mum...hahas..then after that today...she went for swimming with two ppl...then she was reluctant...becaz she like dun wan go...but then was forced by her mum and sis...hahas...but then nvm...anyway its a good thing...can destress...hahas...then i at home lor...sms her...hahas...and realli sian...then chat...hahas...ok lah...going for lunch lers...hahas...bye bye...=)

bad day

2006-08-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

lols...today...realli bad day...moody...then got into fight...then quarrel with her... then after that realli sian...go aural class....dunnoe why also fight...suddenly explode...when someone come disturb me...hahas...anyway...sorry lah...teck hwee...hope ur mouth recover soon....hahas...and take care everyone...nuthing much to write...i go ler guys...buaiix

veri happy bahs X)))

2006-08-10T15:45:00.000+08:00

hahas....realli realli realli happy...hahas...actually is pei her go do project de...then after that she tio pangseh by her group mates...hahas...nvm bahs...then we go walk walk with irene lor...then irene say she need to meet her fren...hahas....samantha i think....then we go DSCC lor...lols...then irene forced me to go in...lols...then went say hi to teacher then go lers...then we went movie...becaz i suggested...becaz realli wan see movie with HER...hahas...then we sit together lor....then i held her hand from start or movie to the end...hahas...then i was like realli daring bahs....then after that we still hold hands...then after that send her home lor...hahas...then she seems realli happy...hahas...then i take bus with her...then take one round...kinda fast sia...lols...then we say goodbye then go lers....hahas....i go lers....go celebrate...while she is celebrating with her ice-cream...lols...i go ler anyway...buaiix guys...

real sad...ha-ha-ha

2006-08-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

hahas...realli sad bahs...hais...was waiting for her to come back...then msn...she talked to me awhile...then ignored me abit...then was a little sad bahs...then my mum wanted me do work...then i told her that i dun wan do...becaz reali tired lers...then after that...i like kinda joking mood tell her then i dun need go lers...then she was like kinda angry with me...then said 'i used to being LIED lers'....then said something like 'the world is full of LIES'...hais...nvm bahs...anyway...aint so important anymore lah....i realli sad...hahas...then i said...then i go at 8 lor...so that i wont be lying to u...thought she wanted me stay...but it didnt happen...hahas...me too easily bluffed le bahs? dunnoes...anyway...just doesnt feel good inside...hahas...nvm...then now she say she wan offline...but then she online now again lers...hahas...nvm bahs...it okay...hahas...white lie?i dunnoe....hahas...nvm...i go ler guys...buaiix

kinda lonely

2006-08-09T16:07:00.000+08:00

hahas...this morning woke up quite late...becaz yesterday tired...somemore sleep late...hahas...then this morning wake up log in msn...then she was no longer there le...hahas...lonely lors...no ppl pei me...and no ppl to talk to...also sian....onli a few ppl...all also not shou de...also sian...hahas...bo liao now...still waiting for her to return home...then can chat with me...hais...but then...think there is onli a realli slight chance lers...doubt she coming back soon...nvm bahs...mayb they alot things to do...for now...i will just stone until she comes back...hahas...i go ler guys...buaiix

m!55!ng @nd L0v!ng eu

realli happy

2006-08-08T18:23:00.000+08:00

hahas...today de day...realli went veri well bahs...morning damn high...at school....then realli hyped up lers...then after celebration...i and her went movie...then late lers...the movie 11.05 start...we 11.20 reach...hahas...nvm...then wait next shows bahs...then we went eat MOS....then saw two gals...from out school...abit irritating bahs...keep disturbing us...sorry gals...=x...but they quite funny...call me james...then HER called me jane...hahas...lols...then after that...we go walk walk...then after that...went to cinemas ler...realli wanted hold her hand but no courage...hahas...but then in the end...when inside...after start while lers...i held her hand...then she was like shocked...hahas...lols...then i also pai seh...lols...becaz she also shy mahs...hahas...anyway....nice show...and a realli happy day for both of us bahs...i go ler guys...buaiix

stupid...just another wound and cut

2006-08-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

hahas...stupid...called stupid by her...even jie jie heard it...hahas...bo bian...then she scold me bahs...then i act stupid lor...we talking happily then...suddenly she scolded me stupid...in a realli serious way...then i act stupid bahs...then she said i did it one more time...she will dun care me...then i just said something...then she like went offline...okies bahs...mayb i shattered her...then wad about me...u like someone call u stupid or something?or u love ppl calling u an idiot arh?izit that way...mayb lifes that way bahs...i dunnoe...i am losing myself and her...i go ler guys...

aiyos...

2006-08-07T20:18:00.000+08:00

today realli alot happened...hahas...realli alot alot...hahas...becaz...today...went for bracers treatment...then the idiot dentist dunnoe do wad...then make me abit pain...sian...then after that cannot eat properly bahs...hahas...then need to wait kinda awhile before i realli xi guan to the bracers again..hahas...so bo bian...hahas...then...after that...i go ask her...if she free...then realli pai seh....scared tmr...ppl see us...hahas...then realli....today at school realli angry with irene....she started scolding me...then she was like scolding and scolding...then i diam diam let her scold bahs...then after she scold until shuang shuan that time...then i retaliate...then stare at her bahs...then she stare back then say see wad see....then i was like...okies...nuthing la...as if i wan look at u...if u nvr scold me...then she started asking me something...becaz i and chin hee talking about something...then i was like...none of ur business rite...KPO so much for wad...then she say u guai lan lah...everytime scold ppl guai lan...then i was like...huh? i got scold u meh...wad the fcuk lor...then bo chup lah...then after that diao me again...then this time realli buay song liao...then realli scold back her...until she jia lat jia lat....until she realli nuthing to say....but then...hais...didnt realli wan quarrel with u de irene...but...hais...nvm...i go ler guys...got anything just tag or sms me...hahas...buaiix

the truth

2006-08-06T13:55:00.000+08:00

hahas...everyone seems to know lers....but not other class de...then today...i received a phone call from wei ren...he say kokie know lers...then i was like shocked...becaz onli three ppl know and is sherman jc and him lor....then dunnoe how kokie know de...but then...wei ren say is sherman say de...then nvm bahs...dun wan quarrel with a fren over small matters...anyway everyone will know soon lers bahs...hahas...so might as well keep it this way...but then...i scared kokie big mouth go anyhow say say say....then realli jia lat liao...hahas....but then hope it doesnt happens bahs...hahas...anyway...we are getting on fine....hahas...so everyone dun worry lers...hahas...i go makan lers...bye guys..

at last...resolved

2006-08-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

hahas...kinda happy becaz our problems resolved lers...hahas...at last...then nvr quarrel lers...hahas...lalas...so happy...then now...so lonely...waiting for her to tuition finish...then can chat....hahas...then good lers...but then...for now...i am veri lonely...hahas...bo bian...sometimes...then sometimes she also lonely...becaz i got class...hahas...fair bahs...i go ler guys....buaiix

sad day

2006-08-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

hahas....its getting worst....the pain realli seems....to real....too painful....too much to bear....until i was numbed....hahas...nvm....i have no feelings now...and she told me...she hate me of something i did...then she said....she dunnoe if the feeling is still there...hahas...nvm bahs...hate bahs....if...a few more days...i still got no feelings...or she still hates me...for one more week or so...then...i guess...no point being together...if it realli is so painful and sad...hahas...nvm...see how things go first bahs...

tired and sad--N!CK®

HU®T

2006-08-05T12:19:00.000+08:00

hais...realli veri sad now...hahas...this morning woke up...talk to her...hahas..then she nvr reply...thought wad happened...then after that...mayb i said something wrong bahs...then screwed our relationship...hais...realli...hais....realli dam sad now....hahas...nvm bahs....then she said she hate me...and detest me....then i think i should just leave it bahs...hais...its all my fault...."i hate you...OK!!" thats wad she said...hahas...okies....nvm bahs....the wound was healing...and it was like another stabbed on it....this time...worst....hahas...nvm bahs...hate me...okies?
hahas...nvm bahs...aiyos...mayb...we not even suppose to start....mayb...i dunnoe....i am in a confusing state now...dunnoe wad to do...dunnoe wad to say....no mood to play...no modd to pratise anything...no mood to do anything...at all...hope...i wont die bahs....hope the wound recover soon....guess i wont be happy for the entire week...no matter wad happens....even if a miracle....wouldnt make me happy...and nuthing does now...seriously...its realli....pain...hahas...why am i so dumb...hurt myself...should have let it go when she said "tmr we will be frens le...(:" then i wont be in this state...dying and somehow clinging on to my last breath...its not a good feeling...hahas...nvm...i go ler guys...hope i get happy soon....hahas...

lying on the bed...thinking...

happy and stress

2006-08-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

hahas...today...got so many things on...then...realli stress...then today...realli keep looking HER...hahs...dunnoe why...the feeling seems stronger...hahs...dunnoe why...hahs...then after that...got aural....which i suk...becaz today got sight singing...wad the fcuk sia...i realli suk at it...i hate sight singing...hahas...but...i love aural...and best of all masters...hahas...i got 139 for masters...lalas...so happy...but stress....i go ler guys

kinda sian

2006-08-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

today...after at msn...so many ppl ask me again...then so bored...then just now zi yun and justin...also...wan call me pei HER...then u like go lors...hahas...then she kinda was like so shy...stick to minjia all the time...sian...hahas...anyway...kinda happy now lah...and abit tired...got alot work today...hahas..
got scolding again...hahas...but then like nuthing...hahas...mum...xi guan lers...hahas...i go ler guys...

weird day...

2006-08-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

hahas...today at school...ben...so bian tai...go ask jia wen they all...gals will steam arh...then..i was sian diao...then they were like discussing about it...then...so disgusting...somemore jia wen go reply...not steam lah...is got liquid...then i was like wad the...lols...they weird...then...go swimming...realli not feeling well...but then...bo bian...must go...then go lor...then swim lers...quite fun...then after that realli pai seh....wylie they all...push me to HER...hahs...then i was like sian diao...so pai seh...so many ppl...later talk rubbish again...hahas...then later we both pai seh...then worst...hahas...but thanks guys...anyway...for the chance u given me...hahas...i go lers lah...

SADDER...T_T

2006-08-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

hahas...i am back...now..even sadder lers...hahas...she thought i dun love her lers...then keep asking me...say...i dun think u love me lers...then nvm bahs...if i dun love her...i wont have protected her...nvm...mayb she dun understand me...mayb...perhaps...she thinks...i treat her like my mei now...okies...nvm...its ok...nvm de...haiz...mei...hahas...she dun wan be frens...dun wan best frens...then...she dun trust me...okies...nvm...its ok...i go lers...

CRYING NOW...

sick, tired, and sad day

2006-08-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday night...hahas...didnt sleep well....becaz...we quarrelled...and she said...Tm2 we are frens le (:...hahas...then...i cried bahs...mayb...too emotional le...hahas...cried almost the whole night...couldnt sleep...somemore got cough...or rather asthma...then nvr sleep much...mayb about 4 hrs onli...or lesser....then...she said...is there a second chance...i wonder...if...she...still likes me...or is she...trying...to heal my wounds...hahas...i dunnoe...then at school...she went partner with another person...then left me with another person...then...its kinda like lying to me...becaz...already say liao...we two same group...okies...then nvm bahs...hahas...hope...i get better...and not be so sad lers...hahas...so lonely now...hahas...i go lers....

first quarrel bah

2006-08-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

didnt know wad happened...she just blew up...then i was also not in the mood...becaz just got a lashing from mum...then it was...i got scolding again...then couldnt control my temper...then we just quarrelled...if it could all start again...i think i wont quarrel with her bahs...i should have let her bahs...anyway...i am a guy...let girl is common thing bahs...haiz...sorry...i go ler guys...

boring day

2006-07-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

hahas...morning...go art class...then msg her...then we chat while...then her phone elope lers...that nvr chat lers...i thought wad happened to her...hahas...then abit worried bahs...hahas...lols...i dunnoe leh...then come back lers...then we kinda like quarrel...then we both feel bad lors...then i just ignore her abit...then she was like abit sad sad de...hahs...sorry lah...its my fault...dun sad liaos...hahas...i go lers...byes

TODAY

2006-07-29T21:13:00.000+08:00

hahas...hi guys...today i went out with her...then...she was like shy...then i also veri shy...then got one extra person...hahas...i wouldnt wan mention...keep pushing me to her...kns...then...i try talk to her lo...then she like so cold...then in the end...i reallli become angry bahs...i also dunnoe why...but then...hope when we go out again...wont like this lers...hahas...i go ler guys...buaiix =)

...

2006-07-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

Erm, she won't reject you lol.. But, she's really sorry that she's really neglected you.. And with things standing in her way, yet with you behind her, she's already very happy =)

Haha, and no brain damage will be done wif you think too deep into that. Only that it's a little disturbing to your own self..

`loveIN-euu (:
signed off,

with a pool of blood..~

no courage

2006-07-28T23:29:00.001+08:00

hahas...i have no courage man...i dare not ask u...go out...i dare...but then...i scared tio rejected...then u like veri busy de...hahas...so sian...then these week...u were like so veri busy...then nvm lor...hahs...when ur things over le...then we go out...but then...i popped a ques to u...then i was like dam rejected...until i was like veri sad...

no courage

2006-07-28T23:29:00.000+08:00

H@PPY

2006-07-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

hahas...now...she accept ler...hahas...lols...actually long ago...then alot ppl know ler...dunnoe which idiot...i think is *****..anyhow go talk...and m*****...kns...all talking rubbish...zzz...make me so pai seh...hahas...aiyos...i go lers...going sleep soon...byes....

sad man

2006-07-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

i told u the truth...but yet..the response i got was that..u did not accept me...the whole day...u treated me coldly..haiz...what a sad day...i go ler guys...byes

H@PPY

2006-07-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

yeah...today quite happy rather than the losing money part..think i should just quit gambling...haha...as it waste time...and money...should not have started it...try bah...i wan buy new bag...sobs... saving...sian...i need about $80 more...

yawns

2006-07-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

why this always happeneing...aiya...quarrelling...then say wad...use u...aiyo...then break lor...so simple onli...u think that way then...nuthing i can do bah...but then...u realli not happy with me then break lor...haiz...

SADNESS

2006-07-03T12:15:00.000+08:00

haiz...ah kor...why u wan go back to the hell....thats gonna kill u...and bore u to death sia...just run lor...why bother to go back sia...u my best kor sia...always help me...then somemore is good to me de...sian...now u going back ler...i reali veri bu she de...sobs...hope u get out of there realli soon...bye bye ah bee...hope u come out soon...good luck ah bee kor kor...byes guys...too sad to say anything else...

written with a sad heart

DISAPPOINTMENT

2006-06-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

haiz...u broke my trust...did not expect to be this way...but it is...

QUARRELS AFTER ANOTHER

2006-06-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

haiz...quarrels after quarrels...man...i suks...keep quarrelling with her...haiz...we dun fit? i dunno...haiz...ok...let me think first bah...

written with a dead body and a tired soul

HAIZ....I HATE YOU

2006-06-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

u fker...i hate u alot...u bitch keep spam...make me lag out...then after that i log in again then u spam again...then i dced again...then 40 mins cannot log in...hope u dc too...u mother fcuking bitch....realli cannot contain my anger sia...u wan say u love ryyuu jie jie...u go spam her whisper lor...need go spam at guild izit...k'nn...i hate u sia...hope u tio dc soon...

damn angry

SICK AND TIRED LER...

2006-06-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

haiz...let me talk about someone bah...u were good at the start and i was baddie...but now.. i try to as good and as nice to u..and i think u are like taking advantage of this man...i am realli sick and tired ler...i keep getting scolding by u for nothing sometimes when u are in a bad mood...but thats nvm...then u keep quarrelling with me over things...and i give in...but if these goes on..i think i wont survive my birthday...i think...haiz...i dunno...i am veri vex...so much problems between us...i try being veri nice...hope i dun blow up one day and just scold u in ur face...thats all i wanna say...and sorry arh guys so long update my blog...not in a good mood...haiz...thats all guys...i go ler...

written with a sad a fed up soul

NICE DAY

2006-06-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

haha...today...was playing quite abit...then do abit of work...then like erm...feel so satisfied...haha...LOL...then i did abit of maths...then read up on the web...then erm...went for dinner with my buddy lor...wei ren...hehe XD...wah we eat so nice sia..somemore talk talk...but then got one regrets...is that i nvr lvl ...hehe 96% then go out eat...LOL...haha...kinda happy today...then after dinner pei someone special play dota then was realli fun...then erm veri enjoy...haha...although i like slack...haha...eh...was thinking of her all day...haha...was busy...i go ler guys...haha...bye bye

written with a happy soul =)

SIAN

2006-06-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

haiz...today is one sad day wor...she went to auntie house then stay there...nvr tell me...sobs sobs...so sian...she not around with me...no one talk to me...then keep tio ks today...then keep jio my ah kor go ks the ppl...then make my mood even more bad sia...so sian...i wan her come back quickly...heh =)...then tomorrow she need go to school...even more sian...until 11+ then come back...again no ppl pei me talk and play ler...guess its fated...then just now call her then phone no batt...then she say fated we cannot talk...haiz..i so tired le...think its time i go ler..bye guys =)

written with a sad soul

BAD AGAIN..

2006-06-17T21:33:00.000+08:00

today is one bad day...first got scolding from teacher at piano lesson...then after that tio scolding again by gf...but nvm...becaz i know she not in good mood...then i just let her lo...then erm...like...we sort of quarrel...becaz she keep scolding me...then i like not happy...then she was talking to me on the phone...then i just kap her phone becaz i knew i had to cool down...or i would say nasty things to her de....after five minutes i called her again...then i apologise then allright le...hehe...so glad =)...or else... i will regret forever...i realli must work hard on my piano le...exams coming real soon...gtg le guys...bye bye ^^

I WAN SMACK MYSELF...

2006-06-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

hih everyone...i veri sad sia...i try to scroll my DR then fail sia...wah lao eh...i hate myself sia...i fail...i too kan cheong liao lah...should not have went to scroll it sia...mayb its not fated to be scrolled to its best lah...i such a failure sia...wah lao eh...i wan die liao...somemore i found out quoway got a new gf...LOL...thats kinda funny lor...he like so lame de...wonder which girl so blind to like him =X hehe...think its time to go ler...bye guys...wahaha

written with a saddened soul and with my blood

A NEW START

2006-06-12T13:18:00.000+08:00

hihi everyone...so long nvr update le...pai seh ah guys...was busy playing maple and i was kinda lucky all the time...keep getting good things de..then all my kor and jie also damn jealous and keep scolding me...say why i so lucky de...hehe...next...we are back together again le...hehe...quite happy lah...but...we keep playing games and no study...then its like kinda bad...but if i dont pei her then its not good ler...but at least we were not like last time when we keep quarrelling like idiots...keep making one another sad and thats good enough le lah...hehe...hope we get better bah and dont quarrel...its time to go ler...bye bye...=)

written with my blood

A CHANGE...WONDER ITS GOOD OR BAD...

2006-06-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

theres a change suddenly...u came back to me...but u were like quite regretful...i wonder...this change is good or not...as i dont feel as much as i do when we were together last time...there seems to be no more feeling le...when u came back...there was not much feeling le...guess u broke my heart like a piece of glass...its unfixable...takes some time...i was not realli veri happy when u came back to me...haha...guess it might take me some time to accept u again...gtg le everyone...

written with my blood

FEELING BETTER---NEW IPOD

2006-06-04T15:32:00.000+08:00

yeah...now i feel better le...at least not so sad le larh...can accept the fact that she is gone le...haha...just now went to buy a new IPOD becaz mine spoil le...sobs...=( so sad sia...the idiot screen dont know wtf happen then crack sia...sian sia...then now the new de is nano de...like a bit suky sia...not like my ipod mini de...so nice lor...this one like nvr eat food like that...so slim de...like so flimsy easy to break like that...somemore the charger like f***...so hard to use...plug in to the ipod liao veri hard to take out...make me so fed up onli...last time de still better XD...if got two the best XD...hahahahaha...time to go ler...bye bye everyone...

written with my blood, heart half fixed

shes stolen not vanished

2006-06-03T10:19:00.000+08:00

today is even more sad...i found out that she was stolen from me and not vanished...*cry* i realli dont know what i did wrong man...u just say that we dont fit...haiz...i am dying by the minute...this realli hurts without someone important around you and talking to you...if it could all start again...think i would cherich u alot...but...you wont give me another chance...guess i realli am not good...haiz...i feel that i was like stabbed betrayed by someone i realli trust and this doesnt feel good at all...guess another person broke my trust in another way...like how some ppl did to me...guess theres no point in being my other self anymore...guess i will be myself and stop being like so retarded...haiz...think its time to go ler...see you next time...bye byez...

written with my broken heart and blood

EXTREMELY SAD

2006-06-02T08:39:00.000+08:00

it was onli that day that we were onli one month but now u dont belong to me...u have left without a trace...guess we are not fated bah...everyday we tend to quarrell of small things and we dont realli fit as our time is so different...everyday either is u make me sad or i make u sad...thought this wont go long...so haiz...nvm...doesnt matter...i still have frens to play pool, do bad things with me and play basketball with me bah...till now i am still sad...think this will take me some time to recover from it...till now...guess i am sad...just dont disturb me in the meanwhile...time to go le...byez...

written with my tears and blood

BAD DAY

2006-06-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

first in the morning went to 883...then play dota...then lost the first match...so sian...due to some f***ing noobs who act pro then lose ...then the second match was a thrash for the second team...40mins then they KO liao...so shuang...hehe...then play hero siege...then wei ren keep critical error...so sian sia...lao eh..the com realli suks there...then remember mr du tell me do chinese de thing...sian liao...haiz...bad day...

written with my blood

MY HEART

2006-06-01T08:28:00.000+08:00

i am still thinking...haiz...i dont know what to do...i am so confused as in what i should do and should i just forget you....i realli dont know...theres too much problem now...i guess i should just let it go...haiz...guess that i still have frens to rely on bah...or do i???

written with my blood

school

2006-05-31T12:59:00.000+08:00

many things happened during these few days when we played together...teacher involved...smoking...fighting...haiz...but i think that we were still veri happy...we stayed close with one another...i kinda think we are getting into like a brotherhood le...we are very good fren...hope it lasts forever...muaahha

written with my blood

BROKEN

sians

sians

hmmm..bored

fake de

happy ending..

on the road to hell

tired

yeahs..her return

ninth day

fifth and sixth day

forth day

first day i realli cried

2nd day

first day..of...extreme torture...

I love you dar..

*tears*

:(( i am so sad..

today

injured

so bored now

feeling bored now..relieved

MY HAIR!! NOW BOTAK LIAO =.=

it's not your fault..

sad sad sad case...

hmmm...kinda ok..

so bored and stress worx...

damn angry sia

sick larhs...

broke up...=((

worried...

tired...real tired...

real happy bahs...

sad sad sad sad

aiyos...

bored

new game

fun day =)))

boring day

bad day

veri happy bahs X)))

real sad...ha-ha-ha

kinda lonely

realli happy

stupid...just another wound and cut

aiyos...

the truth

at last...resolved

sad day

HU®T

happy and stress

kinda sian

weird day...

SADDER...T_T

sick, tired, and sad day

first quarrel bah

boring day

TODAY

...

no courage

no courage

H@PPY

sad man

H@PPY

yawns

SADNESS

DISAPPOINTMENT

QUARRELS AFTER ANOTHER

HAIZ....I HATE YOU

SICK AND TIRED LER...

NICE DAY

SIAN

BAD AGAIN..

I WAN SMACK MYSELF...

A NEW START

A CHANGE...WONDER ITS GOOD OR BAD...

FEELING BETTER---NEW IPOD

shes stolen not vanished

EXTREMELY SAD

BAD DAY

tears